Zombie meatloaf

Halloween dinner.  I think I need to rearrange the teeth cause they look way more redneck than scary. 

state fair souvenir

The kids planted sunflower seeds at the Iowa State Fair in August.  They are starting to bloom.  I love them!!

family picture

Yes, I am an artist! 

Is it almost summer?

Savannah moved from Iowa when she was 19 months old.  All the places she has lived have had very mild winters.  She is in for quite a shock this winter.  She keeps trying to wear shorts and sandals.  The highs are only in the 50's and she just can't accept it's not okay to wear summer clothes. 

I can only imagine this is going to be an ongoing conversation all winter.  She is such a summer girl, all this cold weather is really going to take some getting use to.

Don't even get me started on what it's going to cost to get all the kids winter coats, snow pants, boots. UGH!!

spa treatment

silliness

whipped cream

Like a boss!!

Omaha Children's Museum

This is the perfect place to take the kids for a couple hours a week.  Perfect for kids under 7.  We will be there a lot this winter. 

a little school pride

I made this Iowa State wreath at a friends house last week.  It will be perfect for all those times that I don't have a seasonal wreath.

Pathways

I am 99% sure I am going back to school in January.  I am going to do the BYU-Idaho pathways program. It is all online after the first year.  I can get my BA at home. 

I am also 99% sure I am terrified.  I am afraid of not being able to juggle all my responsibilities, letting people down,  failing, disappointing my kids,  and learning new things.

But that 1% is pure exhilaration.  The idea of being able to do something to better myself and to better our life is exhilarating. 

www.byui.edu/pathways

progress

I have been doing really well this week.  I have been very aware and very positive and I am starting to see the light. 

I have wonderful friends who have reached out and given me excellent advice. 

I am incorporating a lot of their ideas into my life

1.  The church's addiction recovery program is awesome, inspiring and up lifting.
2.  reading and studying about candida and how almost all my symptoms seem to fit into the category of candida overgrowth.
3.  Large amounts of sugar might cause my most recent headaches.
3. Vitamin Shoppe gives you free shipping if you spend 25.00!
4.  Good food doesn't have to be unhealthy.
5.  When I'm not obsessing about food, I have more time to do other things. Like clean, read, play, etc...
6.  that's all.

my girl

Oh this girl makes me smile!!!

learning his name

This makes me so happy.   He is finally showing interest in his letters and learning to write his name. I was beginning to think he'd never do it.

1 week

I have heard of the bandwagon, but I have not jumped on it yet.

So that means I haven't fallen off yet.  I haven't jumped on because I can't seem to make that step. Being aware that this is so much more than lack of will power and realizing that maybe I need to lean on a higher power is a hard pill to swallow.

but here I am, ready to finally take that step.  Ready to swallow that pill.